Dude there are so many chicks here…

Found these ones under the overhang on our porch. The kids have new pets…yay!

Justin the 4ft 9in. 13 year old punk rocker jammin on his guitar. What was I doing when I was 13???

I would say that almost 300 kids came to audition today for the hip hop classes Andrea and I are teaching. We have an average of about 40-50 for hip hop 1 and 2 and about 30-40 for my advanced hip hop 3 class. We’ve got some really talented kids looks like. It’s just funny to see the expressions on some girls faces and their screaming in excitement when I tell them that I want them to be in my class. I’m not freakin Justin Timberlake. I’m not really anyone. Just Howie Begosa

All during the morning, however, I had this hundred-some degree fever and I was just dying. So I spoke with my computer lab staff and they let me spend the rest of the day in the infirmary. I simply could not move my body at all. I finally broke the fever, however, and I’m back and bubbly obnoxious as always. So other than hacking up green globules of crap..and regaining my voice, I can finally get some hardcore work done.

Oh..and midterms. Argh. Maureen IM’d me about how midterms were due today for our internships. SO did not know anything about that. So I busted my ass to find my supervisor to have him fill out all these evaluation forms so that I could fax it to my professor.

I also got a chance to speak with my mom on the phone considering I haven’t had a chance to call her since I’ve been here in NY. Turns out that Paul had undergone his second surgery for his cancer. Things aren’t looking too good because they found two tumors on his liver. And according to the doctors, that’s a very bad thing. He’s also in my prayers.

Sometimes I’m really frightful for how some people behave or react to certain things. Maybe I just care too much. Maybe not. I just wish all my friends happiness even when it’s hard to find or recognize. To everyone who I care about and who are down and out, I’m thinking and praying for you all!

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. So here’s a recap of what’s been happening in good old NY at French Woods Festival

Just a few days ago the dance department here announced that they were in need for a hip hop instructor. So they told those who were interested to audition to teach. So I went in and I saw that I was going up against people like NYC Ballet Company dancers. So I was like…oh shit. I felt like an ass trying to keep up with the combinations they were teaching. And then finally it was my turn to teach one. Surprisingly, when it was all said and done, I was chosen to teach the class. So now I’m teaching 80+ kids how to hip hop and breakdance. Woohoo!

Today was move-in day for all of the kids. That’s 500-600 kids moving in during a 4 hour period. Absolute hell needless to say. And what did I do as everyone worked their ass off? I SLEPT! I’ve been so sick during the past 3 days I’ve hardly been able to get much done. I’ve also spent the last 5 nights at the bar and surely that hasn’t helped either. Everyone keeps dragging me out. But hopefully now I can get some time to relax. My legs also hurt sooo bad from breakdancing. I breakdanced at the staff party as well as the talent show auditions held yesterday. I got cast in the show though so yay again!

Tomorrow I’ll be holding auditions for those who want to be in my advanced hip hop 3 class. FUN!!!

This internship is just WONDERFUL!

Jenny’s also moving to Vegas soon. She’s gotta be so excited. I know what it’s like to move and it’s got to be one of the most exciting things, especially when it’s a far away place.

I learned a magic trick today! I can now make cards disappear. Haha.

So busy. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll have rid myself of this sickness.

Once again it was freezing this morning. I didn’t sleep well at all. Scott and Matt went to Manhattan to take care of a few clients. I was left in charge of the computer lab. Matt called and showed me how to make the computers in the lab communicate with the server. Logged out and all was fine…until I restarted the computers. Turns out that something was going wrong server-side and the computers just sat there with a blue screen and wouldn’t get to the login menu. Over half the computers are messed up and we can’t restart them. So I feel sucky that I let that happen, especially when I’m left in charge. So I’m supposed to wait for Matt to get back tomorrow to fix the server.

Meanwhile on the social side of things, yes, I’m making lots of friends, but it’s so freaking boring here sometimes. There’s nothing to do. I’ve noticed that some of the staff members I’m just not clicking with. Everyone just wants to fuck. It gets annoying after a while. Everyone’s just out to get a piece of ass while I’m trying to make intelligent conversation.

Today I learned to look for red flags pertaining to possible system malfunctions…and also that sex seems to be on the mind of most homesick and bored campers. Like that was a surprise?

What a wonderful day! Started the morning out with breakfast. The water was shut off last night so we couldn’t shower and I felt hideous. I spent the rest of the day preparing the computer lab as usual, but in the afternoon, Scott, my boss, sent us to run and do a checkup on the other labs at one of our sister camps. I drove the car back after we’d finished our errand and it gave me the opportunity to just gaze at the sights here. It’s truly remarkable how the mountains just roll off into the distance–quite a sight. When I got back to camp, we missed dinner and I was starving. Scott was kind enough to have bought us some food. I learned so much today, mostly about networking and booting off firewire drives.

Later this evening, we just hung out at the computer lab. Alyssa and I sneaked off and went to get some eyedrops for my eyes because they were bothering me. Then Adam (British) and Evan (Australian) took us down to the theater and watched them sing and play the piano along with two other British girls. One of them was named Naomi. I wanna name my daughter that name someday! It’s so pretty.

I never knew there were so many stars in the sky until tonight. Alyssa and I walked back to the lab and just looked up and realized there were so many. There’s hardly any light pollution out here. You can pick out even the most faint of stars.

Anyhow, another long day tomorrow. The first of the kids are supposed to arrive on the 22nd. So we need to get out crap in order before then.

So much to talk about, so little time. I have to get to bed now, though.

So it’s been my first real day here at French Woods. I met Matt who really knows his way around networking as well as Macintosh computers in general. Although I still have to brush up on a few technical things such as keyboard shortcuts and what not, I don’t feel I’m too far behind. I learned how to take apart an iMac today and rip out its guts to install new hardware such as RAM and hard drives. I also learned a few things about how to work Apple Remote Desktop and also networking in general. We tore apart and tested all the computers in the main computer lab here at the camp, sorted them, and installed a few software we copied onto the main server. Oh, I also learned a few things about startup commands for OSX.

Aside from the academia, Matt, Alyssa, and I all got to know each other really well today. We stopped into town to pick up a few things from the pharmacy. It’s really horrible sometimes because there isn’t any real store around for quite a ways. There’s no WalMart around here, which really hurts a lot. Matt’s an awesome person. He’s definitely a taught me some things about Apple computers that I haven’t already learned yet. Aside from the professional side of things, he’s a very nice guy. He took Alyssa and me out to the country club to socialize…also fun. I feel left out sometimes because everyone around here is from another country, either England, South Africa, Russia, or Australia. I swear before this summer is over I’m going to have a European accent of some sort. *crosses fingers*

I miss a lot of my friends from back home, and also just communicating with them on IM. I hardly have the time to get online around here, with all the work and all. But Matt help me set up an Airport station in the bunk just a few yards from ours and I get about one to two bars on my wireless internet here in my cabin…so at least I can chat before I go to bed.

What I miss most is not having a signal on my cell phone. I was driving here the other day and I looked down at my cell phone to see that it had no signal and was searching for service. How disconcerting is that??? I also immediately thought about Jenny and how I was going to miss all our wonderful late night conversations. It’s quite sad not being able to hear her voice again. But hopefully I can speak to her every once in a while on here. And when i go into town, I think I’ll be able to get some service. So maybe i’ll call her on her cell when I’m there.

There’s a lot of other fine details about this place that come to my attention and are definitely interesting, however, as I have downed two double shots of rum and coke, and am quite tired, I am quite tired. I have to wake up tomorrow morning for breakfast at 8:30. I better savour the moment now though, because I’ll have to get up much earlier once the campers arrive.

I miss everyone. But I’m having so much fun here at the same time. Here’s to a Summer’s worth of new memories to be made!

I did some google searches for clomipramine, what my doctor wanted to prescribe me for my sleep problem (read my June 10th entry), and I came up with this.

http://www.snopes.com/risque/aphrodis/yawn.htm

and this

http://baillement.chez.tiscali.fr/clomipramine.html

Excerpt:

A married male in his mid-twenties presented with symptoms of depression of three or four months duration. Psychiatric assessment established a diagnosis of unipolar depressive illness, occurring in a passive-aggressive personality. Treatment with clomipramine, 75 mg per 24 hours, on an out-patient basis produced complete symptorn relief within fourteen days. However, the patient was particularly ambivalent about continuing the medication, because he had noted a frequent intense urge to yawn without tiredness and that on many occasions when he yawned, he experienced orgasm, with ejaculation. He denied increased libidinal drive or related fantasy. Although he found this both awkward and embarrassing, he elected to continue the medication because of the therapeutic benefit he obtained. The awkwardness and embarrassment was overcorne by continuously wearing a condom. With discontinuation of the medication several weeks later, the phenomenon disappeared.

HEY! Maybe it isn’t so bad after all!

I’m formatting both my PC and my Mac before I move to NY, so my journal entries will be fewer and shorter (I think). I still have a ton of packing and preparation to do before I leave so this blog is going to suffer a little. But not to worry, once I get settled in at NY I should start writing again. Stay tuned!

I spent most of the day trying to make a dent in this thing called packing. Over the course of several hours, I managed to organize my software collection and other cables and computer equipment into nice alphabetically ordered containers. The tough part is that not only am I packing for my move to NY, but I’m also packing for my move to IUP when I fly back in August. With one day to get my stuff out of NY, move into my apartment at IUP, and somehow wake up for class early the next morning, I have to prepare everything beforehand.

Jenny finally received my letter today. That made me happy. It’s disheartening to think about how I would’ve been writing all kinds of nice letters to Tre this summer. But whatever. I’m trying not to think about her anymore. And I think everyone else around me would be relieved if I did. And Rachael, you’re disgusting for licking my letter. Arr. Next time I’ll lace it with cyanide instead of cologne. Haha (I don’t lace my letters with cologne FYI)

On a more serious note, I got to talking with my dad this evening and we got into quite a serious conversation about if I had ever had sex in my life or not. Why he asked me this now of all times really bugs me. While I didn’t quite answer him truthfully, I let him know that I was definitely not the most innocent person in the world. But all that’s not exactly important. We got into something deeper and more serious. Even now, I’m still in disbelief that I revealed to him something I haven’t conveyed to hardly anyone else in this world, not to my recollection anyway. Here is the man whom I loathed and hated for so long, and for one brief moment, we connected through our conversation and made something meaningful of this love-hate relationship. Things made a little more sense between us, and why we act the way we do toward each other. We’d found a sort of common ground. Regardless, me and my step-father still have our differences, and oh how great those differences are. Suffice to say, we had decided, myself especially, that I need to talk to certain people, of which include my mom, about some forgotten events that have happened in my past…our past. I still don’t see the point of it all as I don’t quite understand how it’s affecting me much as of late. But I suppose he’s correct in saying that it may affect my relationships with others in the future.

I suppose I do have some ghosts I need to deal with in my life. Maybe it’ll make a difference if I finally deal with all this. Maybe not. But it’ll be good to hopefully get some closure in the near future. And maybe it’ll heal the wounds this family has suffered as of late. Who knew that my remembering things would matter so much at this particular point in my life.

Ok…wow. Deep stuff there. A little too deep for a blog that’s for sure. In any case, we’re getting a family picture tomorrow. Yay…*rolls eyes*. But it’s been quite a long time since we’ve had one, and now is especially a good time considering I leave for NY in just 4 days.

It’s hard to run away.

This past day marked the end of our former President’s tale of sincerity and compassion, one which seems so picture perfect. I’d like to take a moment in memory of the good works that former President Ronald Reagan has done for this beloved country. During a time when heroes are waning and passing away, we must look forward to the rekindling of the hopes that new individuals will rise to take up that burden. While there may not be much good left in this world, it is still worth fighting for.

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I woke up early this morning to drop off my mom at work. Then I went shopping for storage containers so I can begin packing the things I need for NY and also for what I need to have ready when I go back to school this summer. Formatted my PC, too. Making sure nothing’s left on there for my family to snoop around while I’m gone.

Later this evening, I went to the Red Barn Theater to help out with their opening show, Play It Again Sam. While entertaining at most, the acting at times seemed amateurish and forced. For a small theater however, especially since it had been one that has helped mold me into the performer I am today, it was sufficient nonetheless. Although it was quite disheartening to listen the actors themselves not quite as enthused about this night’s performance to begin with.

Regardless, it was wonderful to see my old director, Tammy Herb again. Also there was Molly, John, and even Lindsey from my old cast of The Desk. John’s bubbly obnoxious as always. It was wonderful to see Lindsey again, although she didn’t seem as energetic today as most. When I was 16 and I had first met her, she was just going through her last years of college. I had the biggest crush on her and would’ve married her if I ever had the chance. She’s one of the EXTREMELY few that’s for sure. She’s the type of person whose personality bespeaks sincerity and goodness.

My brother’s friend Josh is spending the night tonight. I feel somewhat shameful because he makes such a relentless attempt to make conversation with me, but 90% of the time he’s talking about cars, quads, bikes, and all these mechanical terms. And I am the first to confess that I am a complete retard when it comes to that sort of thing.

Tomorrow, I continue packing. Yippee…

Aaarrghh. I hate banks. I did a bunch of transferring around my money so I could pay bills and the like and I ended up accidently overdrawing from my checking account. I’m such an idiot. Anyway…hopefully that’s all settled for now.

I went out to run some errands and came upon this place called MacOutfitters. They sold all Apple Macintosh stuff. It’s the closest thing to an Apple store. I swear all of us Mac people must come out of the same gene pool or something because we all seem to have the same persona. You got outside into the parking lot and all the employees and customers have Volkswagen Beetles or Jettas.

Oooh…and I went to Barnes and Nobles today and bought two books: Virtual Light and Idoru–all William Gibson books. Next in line after those is Hyperion…for real. And then maybe a few Bruce Sterling novels.

7 days till NY. I can’t wait

I wish there were something I could do to make Gemma happy and feel better. Right now she needs a hug but I obviously can’t be around to do that. *Sigh* Get better Gemma. Sometime soon you’ll be able to take a vacation from your summer vacation.